Hi, Mommy.
I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
... ... ...(tharr be more) ... ... ... ... ...
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
Abortion is a horrible, terrible sin. Even if you think your only just getting rid of some cells or whatever. Having an abortion is as good as making you a murderer. You take away a person's life and future. When a egg and a sperm join together , its already a life being concieved.
When people have an abortion is always because of their selfish thoughts of social segregation or stupid boyfriend pressure. Have you ever considered the childs feelings ? An unborn child has feelings too ! You are depriving a child of its own future.
Don't give into abortion because of your selfish thoughts or because of pressure, abortion is not an easy process. It can affect you physically and mentally, like you'll be filled with torment that you actually killed your own flesh and blood. Or if you didn't get a proper abortion , it could prevent you from ever having children again.
So what can you do to prevent all this DO NOT ENGAGE IN PREMARITAL SEX ! Think of all the problems you will face in cluding getting pregnant and having an abortion.
Girls if a guys pressure you for sex but you're not ready DUMP HIM. If he trully loved you, he would wait untill you guys are married. DO NOT GET PRESSURED JUST BECAUSE HE WANTS TOO OR CAUSE ALL YOUR FRIENDS DID IT !
Guys if you want to have sex just because you want to prove your love or manhood GROW UP ! Think of all the consequences like sexually transmitted disease or if the girl gets pregnant . Majority of the guys would probably run away and lt the girl handle the problem JUST LIKE COWARDS.
Or you'll give money to get an abortion. That child is your flesh and blood too. Think if you were the child and did not even get the chance to see the world because of the irresponsibility of your father
Don't get an abortion, give it up for adoption if you really dont have the means to take care of a child. There are so many women around the world who want a chid but can't due to medical reasons.
Love yourself, dont hurt your body and soul by getting an abortion. The pain and memory is just not worth it
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Monday, August 8, 2011
Selfishness
I was reading a newspaper article a few days ago on how when a marrige start to break down, spouses just grab their children and run off to another country without another word in hopes that the other spouse will have difficulty contacting or finding them in a foreign country. One story told of a man who used to have a close relationship with his child but when his relationship with his wife started to fall apart, his wife started to tell their child bad things about him and caused the child to turn against him. Many people give the reason that they are doing this for the sake of the child but let me ask you something is it really for the child sake or for your sake because you can't cope with the unhappiness ? Did you even consult your child before you whisked them away to a foreign country ? Did you even consider the feelings of the other person ? How would you feel if the tables were turned and your child was just snatched from you just like that and you didn't have any right to see him anymore. This is just one act of pure selfishness.
So please think of others before yourself, always pause and think before you do something wrong. What if the tables were turned and the samething befalled on you ? Remember whatever wrong thing you do it'll always come back to haunt you .
So please think of others before yourself, always pause and think before you do something wrong. What if the tables were turned and the samething befalled on you ? Remember whatever wrong thing you do it'll always come back to haunt you .
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Blessed
There was a boy who was about to graduate from college, he had done very well in college and told his father that he liked this particular sports car very much and wanted his father to buy the car as his graduation present . Now you musn't think its ureasonable as his father could well afford that ca. On the day of the boy's graduation, his father called him into his study he told him how proud he was of his son and passes him e wrapped rectangular present. The son disappointingly opened it and inside was a beautiful leather-bound Bible. Th son angrily said: "Of all things you could afford and you got me this ?"
Msny years passed and the son was now a successful man with a happy family, But one day he thought about his father whom he had not seen since his graduation. As he was making arrangements to go and see his father, he recieved news that his father had pass away. In his father's will, his father had willed all of his possesions to him.
At his father's study, he found the same bible that he had left on the day of his graduation. As he flipped through the pages, it brought tears to his eyes till suddenly in the middle of the bible was a car key.
That car key had the same number of the sports car which he wanted as soon as the young man realised it , he cried unconslebly
How many times have we missed out the blessings we have in life ? We're usually too busy complaining how unfair or how difficult life is to realised how bless we are when there are hundreds of people in the world who would love to have what we have.
So take some time now to stop and think about the blessing we have in life, i dont care how miserable your life is, everybody has at least one person who loves us for who we are. Who is that ? well you'll figure it out, but as long as we have that love then we have every reason to feel blessed
Msny years passed and the son was now a successful man with a happy family, But one day he thought about his father whom he had not seen since his graduation. As he was making arrangements to go and see his father, he recieved news that his father had pass away. In his father's will, his father had willed all of his possesions to him.
At his father's study, he found the same bible that he had left on the day of his graduation. As he flipped through the pages, it brought tears to his eyes till suddenly in the middle of the bible was a car key.
That car key had the same number of the sports car which he wanted as soon as the young man realised it , he cried unconslebly
How many times have we missed out the blessings we have in life ? We're usually too busy complaining how unfair or how difficult life is to realised how bless we are when there are hundreds of people in the world who would love to have what we have.
So take some time now to stop and think about the blessing we have in life, i dont care how miserable your life is, everybody has at least one person who loves us for who we are. Who is that ? well you'll figure it out, but as long as we have that love then we have every reason to feel blessed
Friday, January 7, 2011
same sex relationships
Hey ! Another new year , another time for new beginnings
I just watch another show recently which has different stories taken from real life scenarios . One of them was about a lesbian couple who ran away just to be together. But they eventually committed suicide after being unable to cope with the pressure as no one could accept them or their relationship. During the show , one of the girls mother tried to make them seperate, telling her daughter that people will change and that these feelings are tempoary , if she's willling to change she can still be NORMAL.
They were both perfectly good students with good grades doing well at school. And in the end their lives just ended like that
Notice how i emphasis on the word normal ? What is being normal ? I guess in different peoples perspective it has different meanings
Personally i dont have anything against this kind of relationships , maybe after being in an all girls school i'm used to seeing it.
But i dont see why people have to be against it. i mean it is love, and if they're willing to be comitted to one another i dont see whats there to be against.
My mom once told me that it was a choice that you wanted to be in a same sex relationship. Well alright then, if you choose to be in a same sex relationship then thats ok. ITS YOUR CHOICE. But you yourself must be ready for it, dont say its becuz ur in live. Yea ur in love FOR NOW, have you ever thought about seeing the two of you in the future ? If you cant then give it up.
So dont be afraid, if your confused abt ur feelings talk abt it to a counsellor and straighten up yourself. If your really gay or lesbian then accept it , dont let it or anyone else stop you for being who you really are .
I just watch another show recently which has different stories taken from real life scenarios . One of them was about a lesbian couple who ran away just to be together. But they eventually committed suicide after being unable to cope with the pressure as no one could accept them or their relationship. During the show , one of the girls mother tried to make them seperate, telling her daughter that people will change and that these feelings are tempoary , if she's willling to change she can still be NORMAL.
They were both perfectly good students with good grades doing well at school. And in the end their lives just ended like that
Notice how i emphasis on the word normal ? What is being normal ? I guess in different peoples perspective it has different meanings
Personally i dont have anything against this kind of relationships , maybe after being in an all girls school i'm used to seeing it.
But i dont see why people have to be against it. i mean it is love, and if they're willing to be comitted to one another i dont see whats there to be against.
My mom once told me that it was a choice that you wanted to be in a same sex relationship. Well alright then, if you choose to be in a same sex relationship then thats ok. ITS YOUR CHOICE. But you yourself must be ready for it, dont say its becuz ur in live. Yea ur in love FOR NOW, have you ever thought about seeing the two of you in the future ? If you cant then give it up.
So dont be afraid, if your confused abt ur feelings talk abt it to a counsellor and straighten up yourself. If your really gay or lesbian then accept it , dont let it or anyone else stop you for being who you really are .
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Obsession
LOL i've been slack yet again. Too lazy too update :p. Anyway wanna talk a new topic called obsession. I mean , we can be obsessed with a lot of things, idols, guys and other stuff. But sometimes, we can get too carried away with this obsession and start to do crazy stuff. For example, i"ve heard of fans soooo obsessed with their idols they camp outside their homes and stalk them . I mean, queing up and camping to buy concert tickets is still acceptable. But camping outside somebodys home ? How would you like it if someone did that to you ? Would you like it ? (Unless your an attention seeker) And come on, even though they are idols, they're still humans and they deserve some privacy. And so what if you camp outside their home ? Just so you can snap a photo of them ? Sorry, but your just showing your idol you have no self respect and that you don't have a life, since your soo obsessed in THEIR lives.
Take computer games as an example, people have died from playing computer games . And how do they die ? They are soo obsessed with the game they they don't eat, sleep or even drink . Or they are so obsessed that they imagine themselves as the character and they go on a killing spree thinking their some heroes saving the earth from aliens or whatever
Also , there are girls and guys obsessed with one another. Like, they would stalk them or whatever . And they fill their rooms with pictures and whatnot. Then they end up killing themselves or the other party saying stuff like " If i can't have you, then no one else should"
Mybe an obsession to stay thin till you starve yourself. There are many things people can be obsessed with
So what is my point ? My point is that there has to be a limit to this obsession. Its like a virus which is slowly consumng you and devouring you till your nothing but an empty shell. You can stop this obsession, it all depends on you. Don't let it control your life , do other things to take your mind of this obsession, sports family and school anything else. Come back to reality and don't let yourself be devoid of a normal life just because of a crazy obsession. If your still confused , seek help from a counsellor or a Psychiatrist, b4 its too late.
Take computer games as an example, people have died from playing computer games . And how do they die ? They are soo obsessed with the game they they don't eat, sleep or even drink . Or they are so obsessed that they imagine themselves as the character and they go on a killing spree thinking their some heroes saving the earth from aliens or whatever
Also , there are girls and guys obsessed with one another. Like, they would stalk them or whatever . And they fill their rooms with pictures and whatnot. Then they end up killing themselves or the other party saying stuff like " If i can't have you, then no one else should"
Mybe an obsession to stay thin till you starve yourself. There are many things people can be obsessed with
So what is my point ? My point is that there has to be a limit to this obsession. Its like a virus which is slowly consumng you and devouring you till your nothing but an empty shell. You can stop this obsession, it all depends on you. Don't let it control your life , do other things to take your mind of this obsession, sports family and school anything else. Come back to reality and don't let yourself be devoid of a normal life just because of a crazy obsession. If your still confused , seek help from a counsellor or a Psychiatrist, b4 its too late.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Regret
Recently, i've been watching this show called Ghost Friends. Makes me think about all those poor people who died b4 accomplishing their dreams and then they wallow in regret and start haunting the human world. Then there are those who know that they are dying and choose to wallow in regret and moan abt all the things they didn't get to do and they end up not at peace with themselves. Well then i'm telling you to stop being such a whiner and enjoy the time you have on earth. If you want to wallow in regret then your just wasting your precious time, don't waste your moaning and spend your time more fruitfully like spending time with your family and friends. After your dead , you'll never get to see them ever againg, isn't that painful ? So i'm saying is that ok you can moan a bit but don't waste your whole time moaning. Its useless and even if you moan, is it going to lengthen your life on earth ? I don't think so, so rather spent your time with your loved ones or do whatever you want to do (But i do not mean going to go and kill your enemies, that will only bring you more guilt, and you will feel more unrested trust me ) Time does not belong to us, it belongs to our maker (whichever religion you belong to) so when our time is up, accept it. :)
The link to the drama is http://www.dramacrazy.net/japanese-drama/ghost-friends/, i'd really recommend it cuz it's really sweet and other stuff but i wished there could hav been a better ending but it's worth a shot :)
The link to the drama is http://www.dramacrazy.net/japanese-drama/ghost-friends/, i'd really recommend it cuz it's really sweet and other stuff but i wished there could hav been a better ending but it's worth a shot :)
Friday, October 15, 2010
I want to tell her
I just had to put this up
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
So do something you really want to do , even something as simple as "i love you" before it's too late
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
So do something you really want to do , even something as simple as "i love you" before it's too late
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